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I finally got some time to tend to myself.. It has been such an exhausting day. Today somebody brought up my ex-husband, and I did not know how to act.. They spoke to me as if forgetting who they are talking to. I tried to shut the conversation down, except they kept prying me to know more. I felt so uncomfortable.. But it felt so difficult to say no.. Sometimes, I wish I wasn't associated with him anymore. I love him, I miss him dearly, but I don't want to be seen even decades later as merely someone that was his wife. I'm a whole person, however they seem to forget that. I tried so hard back then to be the best housewife.. I cleaned, cooked, and took care of the kids all by myself every day. Except I never felt like I was given enough back.. My efforts were brushed off so frequently, told me it was nothing to complain about. Of course it was easy for them to say, when they don't spend several hours scrubbing the floors and tiles daily.. Nobody told me taking care of two sons practically alone would be so demanding.. I suppose I had it easier than others, because I had my husband's money and housing.. But I don't know. I love my sons, I really do, however sometimes I just want to be able to focus on myself again. But.. Saying that makes me feel very guilty. Perhaps I'm better off just staying silent

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